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[28 Feb 2006|02:48pm] |
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I'm in a mood. Again. It's been a couple of weeks since the last one hit and I hate it. I'm all moody and tired and uninterested. I mean I even went to bed early yesterday and napped and I'm still tired.
But yeah I am feeling better since last week. Sicky aint so sicky anymore! I need to go to downtown Oakville and I have no means for transportation. Ok that’s a lie I could potentially walk but that would take a while and I'm a little pressed for time lately.
On the bright side 8 1/2 are left until play is over. You guys have no idea how excited I am to not have to go to practice anymore. However the most stressful part is still coming and the staff scares me a little. She is very stressed and I worry for my immortal soul.
Anywho thanks to Ellie for updating.
I love you all despite my inner turmoil and angst!
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[15 Feb 2006|10:36am] |
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Ugh. Life is weird this week.
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| It's all grey now |
[14 Feb 2006|02:40pm] |
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We just discussed abortion in philosophy and usually I am very vocal in supporting pro-choice but I've discovered that I don't know anymore. I have lost my grasp on all these absolute rights and wrongs I used to believe in. It's all grey area now. And this scares me because for so long all my opinions were defined and rigid and served as this basis for everything. I knew what was right and wrong, what our rights should be but now...I don’t know. It's like I've lost all those "good" reasons I had for believing what I do and now I'm up the creek without a paddle. My moral compass has disappeared and with it my opinions and my comfort. I mean I have so many questions without answers and I don’t find solace in anyone's opinions.
Not knowing has become this preoccupation because I can't make up my mind. Every time I think I've found an opinion that is right and just there's one question that unravels it.
I hate not knowing where I stand.
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[14 Feb 2006|09:37am] |
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Wraith Pinned to the Mist and Other Games - Of Montreal |
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Happy Valentines Day!
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| My hair froze today which was weird because that's never happened to me before. |
[08 Feb 2006|08:42am] |
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I feel all warm and sleepy because our classroom is too hot.
I did the 5 years ago meme and I realized I was a weird preteen.
Anyway here's a random picture that made me smile this morning.
I want a big blue/green thing like in this photo. It reminds me of monsters inc.
And she looks so cozy
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| I am so very very bored with life. I realize you all are too so you don't have to read this. |
[01 Feb 2006|10:33am] |
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Yeah I just realized I have absolutely no idea what I want to do next year. What's really frustrating was before I did know or at least I had a good idea. Now there is nothing it just fucking evaporated! Its like I’ve been basing what I want to do next year on what I like right now but academically my interest level is nil so I don’t know anymore.
GAH!
I am so bored of school and I want to do something completely different right now. We just talk about the same things over and over again and I've started to see that I don’t really care about any of it. It’s just like I’m finding all my opinions inadequate or boring and I want to change that but whenever I try to voice something I get shot down.
We have so much work and it’s all so boring it drives me nuts. I am sick of writing the same contrived bullshit but I don’t have the motivation to do anything else. No class is inspiring anymore. It’s like I don’t want to do work because it’s hard I don’t want to do it because it’s boring.
I really hoped senioritis wouldn’t hit till third term.
My grades are going to go down hill man.
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| Yeah Tech meetings suck |
[24 Jan 2006|04:18pm] |
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The Longstaff is in a bad bad mood today
I am frightened for my self-esteem
also I think I just got a virus.
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[19 Jan 2006|11:03pm] |
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Harriet's Got A Song - Ben Kweller |
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I am le tired
but in a good way this time
I am also a little horse from screaming at Appleby Idol. It was pretty much what I expected it would be if not a little short. The judges were brutal which made me sad because they putdown a lot of really good acts. Also that dumb middle schooler. Yes using “gay” as an insult IS SO COOL. I mean really a gay teacher was standing a meter away from her. And we have policies against that kind of thing. But really it was just so unnecessary it pissed me off.
Ah but one more day till the weekend and I only have three classes!
Yay for the little pleasures in life!
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| PoliSci has gotten me thinking... |
[09 Jan 2006|02:05pm] |
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Is it bad that I don't give a crap about Canada's military?
If I were voting it wouldn’t be a key issue for me
I know it's important for making sure the US doesn't walk all over us but honestly not a priority...
So on to things less random....
school is boring but not as bad as expected and I am glad to be back in boarding
however I now know I'm going to fail Calc
and we're doing poetry in English which I always have mixed feelings about
I mean I love discussing it but hate learning literary terms
Ugh and after this amnesty
I need to have a nap
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[03 Jan 2006|11:44pm] |
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Number of the Beast - Zwan |
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Want to know something crazy? My sister wrote one of those comment letters to Teen Vogue and aparently it's in the newest issue. Yeah that's right Polly has been published in a small way in Teen Vogue.
That is weird.
( Last Year )
Tonight was good.
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| The Song Meme |
[30 Dec 2005|04:27pm] |
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All Along The Watchtower - Jimi Hendrix |
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Hit the "random" button on whatever music software you use and post the first ten songs to pop up.
I love my ipod
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[24 Dec 2005|06:34pm] |
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Merry Christmas
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| I fucking hate New Years. |
[22 Dec 2005|03:25pm] |
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My bitter rage. |
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We are going to a pub which serves horrible food unless you want chicken wings and has leather bound volumes of readers digest on its walls. This is on actual NEW YEAR EVE that we're going to this restaurant. I am fucking pissed off.
We always go up to Huntsville where my sister and I are bored. Usually on New Years we go to a nice restaurant which is not exactly fun but we do dress up and do something.
I am petitioning my parents to let me stay home.
FUCKING EMO ANGST SHIT!
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[20 Dec 2005|11:11pm] |
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Went to Toronto today where I finished up almost all of my x-mas shopping. I now only have half of my brother's gift, my dad's gift and half of Meg's gift to get. I have four days left. Yet again: shit.
I did try on a really pretty dress at Urban Outfitters that I'm considering for semi. I also realized that I love dresses and I have one. I need more. Damn my consumerist needs!
anyway this is what it looks like only I liked it better in black:
nice huh?
also I saw chronic-WHAT?-les of Narnia which was much better than I thought it would be except it was a little young for me. But then again it was a CHILDREN'S movie so I shouldn't have been so surprised. I did enjoy the Beavers though. They amused me.
Yeah so I'm going to go watch the daily show and feed my liberalist-nut needs.
Night
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| ITS OVER! FINALLY OVER! NO MORE YD LESSONS! |
[19 Dec 2005|03:40pm] |
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Yeah so I'm a little excited that I will only ever have to see my instructor Gerry one more time. Maybe. We put up our tree last night which was so fun. Polly, Mom and I just hung out and wrapped gifts and adding more ornaments.
I really really need to finish my x-mas shopping. Since you know it's in oh five days....shit...
But yeah the real point of this entry is to talk about my grades. Which I got. They were ok I got an 88 average which is good but still slightly disappointing. Especially since my marks were dragged down by one subject *cough*FUCKING CALACULUS*cough*. But I calculated my top six 4Us for Uni and I managed a 90 average which is truly awesome. I am very proud of that.
Now all I need to do is apply to university. Yay for online applications! Except for Kings which is an archaic bastard for making me mail it in. Do you know how much the Canadian Postal Service Blows?!
anyway yeah robin and brooke come over for movies tonight.
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| Vacations are nice |
[15 Dec 2005|10:17pm] |
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Exams are over
this makes me very happy.
Today however was not happy. Polly, Nisha, Tassi and I went to square one where Polly lost her wallet and a bottle or organina spontaniously combusted and orange juice/glass went everywhere. It went all over the gifts I bought and into my hand and Polly's chin. I got a couple of gifts but not that many and it took us two hours to get from square one to our house.
Yeah im never going back there.
but other than that so far the break has been fun (all two and a half days of it) and tomorrow toronto! I'm excited!
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